By: john@jmcoy.com

john@jmcoy.com — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 06:52:12 +0000

Hi Geoff,
I can so hear you about this “denial” thing. I feel that if we were to fully accept life as it is that we would all have to be bodhisattvas…and if we were all bodhisattvas I guess we wouldn’t be here and we’d be off playing some wonderful spiritual game somewhere in the beyond.
To be able to really see the beauty and be able to endure the horror amidst the sublime is, I guess, what we are all in some way dealing with and and learning to accept until we can in fact let it go and live as our divine selves. When I allow myself to some face to face with the corruption, devastation, evil, stupidity, and punishing ways of the ego mind that surround and envelop me, it tears my heart and drains my soul and I have to bury my head and blind my eyes and sensibilities so I can continue to go out and make a dollar as I have been taught …and then I often find it important to take on the mantle of shame for my inability to rise above it all.
I know this is not the way and I deeply appreciate your assistance in realizing this.
I read this quote that Neale Donad Walsch the other day:
“…that the best argument you can make is no argument
at all.
Do not argue with life, or with anyone in life. Life
presents itself perfectly in every moment, and every
person believes his or her point of view to be valid
and ‘right.’
Arguing with any of this is pointless, and a terrific
waste of energy. Simply create what you choose next.”
Somehow this made more sense than ever to me. We are in this place and that is the truth. We can deny it but in fact it won’t change anything and it isn’t our resonsibility to fix it or others. All we can do is be who we are to the best of our ability and to just accept life as it is and begin to dig it…just the way it is and allow it to unfold exactly as it does. Sheesh. I don’t know why I never realized this before. I so learned that it was my responsabilty and that I was so wrong and needed to carry the shame and pay penance not only for all of my misdeeds and imperfections, but as well as that, I needed feel ashamed for my race, my country, mankind, etc., etc., etc.
I don’t know how one can avoid jumping in that proverbial river in Egypt with all of this on our backs or in our heads.
I vote for moving on and getting that we are all fucked.. but somewhere in accepting this, we can still go on and enjoy this crazy thing called life and allow our hearts to be ripped open and love it as it happens… sort of like going to the gym and doing the workout and feeling the endorphins pull us through the pain and feeling stronger for the act. The bit about realizing that even if you die its no big deal. This is a big concept that is ultimate if our ego is in charge. So simple. Let’s just let it go.
Be happy.

By: Kristi

Kristi — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 21:17:42 +0000

Hi Geoff, I read your lastest entry about denial. A great read. Thank you for shaing. I have been there many times, not wanting to feel and thinking I can do it all alone. Then I wonder where spirit went. Of course, I blocked it from coming in.
It is just too funny that I was trying to read it and my 2 year old keeps on throwing his skiploader in my lap. I was so in my ego and had to step away from the blog to get a new perspective. I had those really ego thoughts like why can’t anyone let me read, I deseve my space, etc…. I put the computer down and read him a Thomas the Train book and just hugged him.

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